17 January 2006
Ang hirap.
Sencillamente quiero pasa el tiempo con tu.
Aun querer.
I still do.
Aun querer.
I still do.
14 January 2006
The Chronicles of None-nia
I watched my first ever "alone movie" last night, The Chronicles of Narnia (The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe). Glorietta 4, Cinema 6, 10:00PM. The movie was, um, cute. The experience, not really cute.
Hey, that's like me and my kapatids! Peter, Edmond, Susan, and Lucy couldn't have introduced themselves to me in a better time. The rivalry, the drama, the betrayal. It was so... now. (Haha!)
I liked the Ice Queen. So strong willed and determined. And the costumes. Really nice. I'd love to borrow her "ice wand" sometime.
The animals, I somehow wish they were real, so I can finally get an animal pet: talking, showing kindness (or even hostility and other man-like qualities), making you smile. What's better is that you won't have a hard time explaining where they should dump their waste.
Asnal, the king--oh, the lion king--well, he was the king. But he needed the siblings to save Narnia from the witch (the Ice Queen) and rule it for about a decade or so before coming back and re-claiming his throne for his actual re-reign. Whew. Senior citizens nowadays can be really weird.
And the wardrobe. I wonder, where can I get one like it? I'd love to move from one world to another to try aging, learn, and come back and put what I learned to practice. That'd be the most wonderful thing neither Belo, Mendez, or the Calayans can merely offer. And all you need is a spare room and a huge blanket for cover!
It would be great to test aging first. Everybody says we only live once... so why not practice first before the actual living? It won't hurt to know stuff to "avoid" things that can hurt you or make you sad.
Like going to the movies alone, especially if it's not your thing (but somehow you give in and do it anyway). At one time or another, I looked at the empty seat beside me. It was a little cruel, I admit, for it made me feel empty. Moviehouses were built for companies, for friends, for people you want to enjoy your time with. For one and another.
That empy seat screamed loneliness at my face. And if I can make a wish right now, as one of the Kings of None-nia, I wish it doesn't happen again.
Hey, that's like me and my kapatids! Peter, Edmond, Susan, and Lucy couldn't have introduced themselves to me in a better time. The rivalry, the drama, the betrayal. It was so... now. (Haha!)
I liked the Ice Queen. So strong willed and determined. And the costumes. Really nice. I'd love to borrow her "ice wand" sometime.
The animals, I somehow wish they were real, so I can finally get an animal pet: talking, showing kindness (or even hostility and other man-like qualities), making you smile. What's better is that you won't have a hard time explaining where they should dump their waste.
Asnal, the king--oh, the lion king--well, he was the king. But he needed the siblings to save Narnia from the witch (the Ice Queen) and rule it for about a decade or so before coming back and re-claiming his throne for his actual re-reign. Whew. Senior citizens nowadays can be really weird.
And the wardrobe. I wonder, where can I get one like it? I'd love to move from one world to another to try aging, learn, and come back and put what I learned to practice. That'd be the most wonderful thing neither Belo, Mendez, or the Calayans can merely offer. And all you need is a spare room and a huge blanket for cover!
It would be great to test aging first. Everybody says we only live once... so why not practice first before the actual living? It won't hurt to know stuff to "avoid" things that can hurt you or make you sad.
Like going to the movies alone, especially if it's not your thing (but somehow you give in and do it anyway). At one time or another, I looked at the empty seat beside me. It was a little cruel, I admit, for it made me feel empty. Moviehouses were built for companies, for friends, for people you want to enjoy your time with. For one and another.
That empy seat screamed loneliness at my face. And if I can make a wish right now, as one of the Kings of None-nia, I wish it doesn't happen again.
12 January 2006
the big blur
That's the last week of 2005 and the first 13 days of 2006.
Time runs fast!
Too fast. Wow. Here's the best I can remember on those days:
1. December 23. (Christmas) dinner with the barkada. This included major apperances of two highschool classmates/friends, namely Andrew "AndyCarps" Carpio and Matt Lester Matel, whom we haven't seen/heard of since March 2000. Kinda amazing.
2. December 23. A very nakakakilig "thank you" came my way. Haayyy...
3. December 25. A rather disappointing Christmas dawn, when Someone forgot to pick me up when he assured me he will at 1AM. But no biggie (ahem, ahem)...
4. December 25. An 8-episode Charmed Season 8 marathon from the afternoon until evening. Ganda.
5. December 27. Mulawin and Exodus of the 2005 Metro Manila Film Festival. Ho-hum.
6. December 28. Birthday dinner of Arianne's son, East the lost Panday. Cute!
7. December 29. Marlon (Manoy) dropped a bomb at me at around 4:30 p.m.: "Pao, sa'n mo gusto pumunta (after office)? Last day ko na 'to..."
8. December 29. New Year "party" with Manoy, Biktoy, Nel, Ate Len, Ate Len's hubby, Ate Len's hubby's friends. And no, I did not, err, get drunk.
9. December 31. Facial. Hair re-style. Hair color. BAM!
10. January 2. Oh, everybody can't help but gasp with awe at my new look. (Sorry I can't show you yet, it's not yet finished. Haha)
11. January 10. The day I swore off Extra Joss Gin.
12. January 11. Oh wait, this is The Day I Swore Off Extra Joss Gin.
See? It's like the 12 Days of... Idunno.
Amazing.
Welcome 2006.
Time runs fast!
Too fast. Wow. Here's the best I can remember on those days:
1. December 23. (Christmas) dinner with the barkada. This included major apperances of two highschool classmates/friends, namely Andrew "AndyCarps" Carpio and Matt Lester Matel, whom we haven't seen/heard of since March 2000. Kinda amazing.
2. December 23. A very nakakakilig "thank you" came my way. Haayyy...
3. December 25. A rather disappointing Christmas dawn, when Someone forgot to pick me up when he assured me he will at 1AM. But no biggie (ahem, ahem)...
4. December 25. An 8-episode Charmed Season 8 marathon from the afternoon until evening. Ganda.
5. December 27. Mulawin and Exodus of the 2005 Metro Manila Film Festival. Ho-hum.
6. December 28. Birthday dinner of Arianne's son, East the lost Panday. Cute!
7. December 29. Marlon (Manoy) dropped a bomb at me at around 4:30 p.m.: "Pao, sa'n mo gusto pumunta (after office)? Last day ko na 'to..."
8. December 29. New Year "party" with Manoy, Biktoy, Nel, Ate Len, Ate Len's hubby, Ate Len's hubby's friends. And no, I did not, err, get drunk.
9. December 31. Facial. Hair re-style. Hair color. BAM!
10. January 2. Oh, everybody can't help but gasp with awe at my new look. (Sorry I can't show you yet, it's not yet finished. Haha)
11. January 10. The day I swore off Extra Joss Gin.
12. January 11. Oh wait, this is The Day I Swore Off Extra Joss Gin.
See? It's like the 12 Days of... Idunno.
Amazing.
Welcome 2006.
27 December 2005
2 messages
you really do want it, but that doesn't mean you can have it.
can't you just let things be the way they are?
TWO sentences ringing in my head in the last two days. TWO messages from different soruces, but seeming to agree to yell some "rational" sense into me. there's only 5 days left in 2005; i had planned to let them all pass by smoothly, but it seems i have yet one last challenge to face:
Do i or do i not tell someone how i feel?
the pros and cons are very simple; and either choice boils down to one result: i will lose something to have another. if it were just me, i won't have much trouble deciding. but humans need to be selfless from time to time, i was told.
i don't want to lose something for another. lost has been a constant in my life for the longest time. i want to give it a rest at least this once, but the odds are, well, against me.
i hate migraines.
can't you just let things be the way they are?
TWO sentences ringing in my head in the last two days. TWO messages from different soruces, but seeming to agree to yell some "rational" sense into me. there's only 5 days left in 2005; i had planned to let them all pass by smoothly, but it seems i have yet one last challenge to face:
Do i or do i not tell someone how i feel?
the pros and cons are very simple; and either choice boils down to one result: i will lose something to have another. if it were just me, i won't have much trouble deciding. but humans need to be selfless from time to time, i was told.
i don't want to lose something for another. lost has been a constant in my life for the longest time. i want to give it a rest at least this once, but the odds are, well, against me.
i hate migraines.
20 December 2005
new things
one good, the other one foreboding.
first things first: i have a new pendant! it's so cute, as you can see. i have another one, had it made 3 years ago (it's a little bigger than this one, will show you pic next time). my kapatid saw this one in the mall last week. also, somebody informed me that she also saw a triquatra pendant in another mall the other week. when my sister confirmed its existence, i readily asked her to buy it. ang cute, 'di ba?
then the spoiler.
just when i thought my 2005 is ending favorable enough, something almost beyond my control came barging in. someone--sorry, i can't name HER right now--will be joining our work company this month. when i specifically told her two months ago NOT to do so. i thought she listened, but clearly she's looking for a new migraine. i'm not in the mood to add another one to my hitlist, but she's giving me no choice. i'm 22, and UNfit to play protagonist. it's war she wants, it's defeat she'll get.
19 December 2005
to an ex-friend, thanks.
Ii've been wanting to move my blog to somewhere else for some time now. But it's been either laziness or more laziness that kept me from doing so. Then a former-friend-hinting-a-comeback character announced his/her new blog addy (duh. here, of course)... on a Monday Morning. His/her timing couldn't have been better.
Hence, xionanymous.blogspot.com.
Nothing so special, really. I still have my Friendster blog, err, walking... (towards its grave? hehe). I have my invisible notepad, my cell fone, and my phone pals. Intend to maintain this one well, though. :-)
Besides, 2005 is ending, and the URL here is shorter.
Welcome to my new online notebook.
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